Do you enjoy your job? Do you think what you do influences the attitude you adopt to your condition(s)?
For the last 35 or so years I’ve been planning things. Think party planning but without the sex, drugs and booze. To be precise I’ve been planning projects ranging in size from small construction jobs, offshore wind farms, MoD contracts and the mega Channel Tunnel. The last few years have been spent planning a major upgrade to the London Tube and the introduction of the air-conditioned, walk-through trains on the District, Circle and Metropolitan Lines. (If you use them I hope you enjoy the experience).
The job has been challenging, especially when tackling new areas where you need to quickly learn a myriad of acronyms, technical terms and understand the new processes needed to deliver a successful outcome. The standard planning tool is the bar chart, or Gantt chart to give it its fancy name, but the key is always communication. That’s where my love of diagrams comes from. If you can encapsulate on a single page the message you are trying to get across it is so much easier for others to understand than using reams of words.
In 2010, maybe it was 2011, it dawned on me that my health could be considered a “project” and the techniques I had been using for years could be effectively employed. I was faced with multiple outpatient appointments, procedures and a growing number of health conditions. The follow-up letters or medical reports often contained acronyms or very long, very unfamiliar medical terms and when I obtained copies of all my medical records I reached information overload. It then became a labour of love to condense the “story” into an easy to follow narrative.
The “project” approach (and starting a blog) has enabled me to become very objective about my health issues. I see my consultants/NHS as a set of expert resources that will help to achieve a successful outcome. But, of course, there lies a problem. What is a successful outcome? For a conventional project there is a clearly defined point at which it can be declared finished but for a chronic condition, such as Crohn’s, there is at present no end in sight. That makes me uneasy as I’m used to completing a project and then moving on to the next one. (My wife would not agree when it comes to home DIY but that’s just a man thing).
Maybe this isn’t just a chronic illness issue but also age related. When you reach a certain point in your life mortality surfaces as an issue. You start to realise that there’s more behind you than in front. If you’re an actuary then you may have already calculated when your use of the term “midlife crisis” is valid. For the rest of us, without access to the actuarial tables, we can only guess and ask our consultants that question that they can’t answer to – “will Crohn’s shorten my life?”
Returning to the original question – do you think your job influences your attitude? Maybe I’ve got this completely the wrong way round and the question should be – do you think your attitude to your condition influences the job that you do?